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Guess who’s back…. back again?
Well I tried working on the Control Group, the thing I talked about in the last post. Turns out policy is really fucking corrupt. Like… “we only work on things our donors nudge us towards” levels of corrupt.
So… that’s not for me. But now I know, right? I think the issue is I want to do all the things, I like all the things, and asking me to pick one of the things is like asking me to pick which finger I would like to save and you cut off the other nine…. impossible.
Yesterday I made some sunflower, lemon, and lavender jelly from sunflowers I picked in a lot across the street. I did this last year and I think this can be an annual tradition, but sitting there watching the light brown jelly set made me think… why can’t I have it all? Do it all? Be it all? Maybe the thing that’s failing me, or failing to serve my needs, is the fact that picking any one thing is too narrow. I can’t post on TikTok alone, or Instagram alone, or…. really anything alone. I’m going to put everything here, like I said in the beginning, and that’s going to be that. I’m going to take the pressure off myself to try and be niche, be specific, be memorable, and I’m going to work on just being…. me.
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